Weaning Begins...

Guess what? Amazing news: I am being weaned off my drugs!

I got the call late yesterday from one of my doctor's nurses. I am now dropping to two patches of estrogen instead of four, and one progesterone applicator a day instead of two.

Of course I am nervous as hell, because these medications are what has been feeding and supporting my pregnancy. But I guess my placenta must be starting to take over. We saw the yolk sack and the umbilical cord at yesterday's ultrasound- not sure if those things are related or what, but seems like it might be?

So, last night when my alarm went off at 8 pm, I just shut it off and continued reading my book. Totally weird.

I am really scared and really excited and, as usual, really tired  :)

Worry

Yesterday, around noon, I started having very mild cramping. Last night, it got worse. Not terrible, but bad enough that I would have taken painkillers if I weren't too worried not to. Also, sometime overnight, my back started to ache pretty badly. Today at work, the cramps mostly subsided, but the back ache got pretty bad. I sat at my desk with a heating pad for most of the day.

This evening, the back is feeling better, but now the cramps are occasionally happening again. I was terrified last night that this all means my period is coming. It would be really sad to get a negative next Wednesday, but I will be totally devastated if I don't even make it to next Wednesday. If I get my period early and all my chances are lost due to my damn luteal phase defect, I will be so upset. Last time, last cycle, the progesterone was perfect. I had like a 16 or 17 day luteal phase. I am only on 8dpo 6dpt, so this better not be my period. It's possible the cramps are gas (though I don't think so) and the back ache... just unrelated? Or could the cramping be a good sign, perhaps?

I don't know, but I'm pretty upset and anxious. Last time, I had no symptoms, so there was nothing to hyper-analyze.

I hope I wake up tomorrow and feel totally fine. We will see.

One Week Down, One Week To Go

I haven't been posting lately because I don't have much to say. My transfer was almost a week ago (last Thursday morning), and my test day is just under a week from now (next Tuesday morning). I am still doing Progesterone shots every night, which is a huge (literal) pain in the ass. 1 1/2 inch needles are just no fun. My tush is so sore that it's hard to lie down or get up from that position, and I can feel it in every step I take. Still, we are being good about taking hour long walks most evenings. I am avoiding my regular weights and cardio classes at the gym, so the walking is helpful in moving around and relieving stress.

Overall, my stress levels have been totally manageable. Because the progesterone creates pregnancy symptoms and I know it's just the medication, there is none of the hyper-analyzing and second-guessing that I normally have done during the two week waits. I know it's all from the shots, and so I don't freak out.

What I do: EAT. I am so hungry, and so often! Also, not to be gross, but they weren't kidding when they warned me about constipation. But, not so bad. The hunger and tiredness and sore boobs are more noticeable. Also, the morning sickness continues, though not every morning and not terrible.

B and I are just hoping and wishing so much for good news on Tuesday. Till then, I'll try not to dwell on things too much, and just hope for the best. Only six more nights and then... test day.