Feeling blue

I know my nurse said not to worry, but I can't help it.

We had friends over for dinner last night and that was a great distraction, but I'm at home today and B is in class till 9:45 pm, so it's a long day on my own. Luckily I have acupuncture soon, and that should help.

Today is also Valentine's and that's depressing, somehow. Everyone is posting adorable photos of their babies on Facebook and I don't think I'll get to have one to hold anytime soon.

Tonight I plan to spend the evening with some leftover squash, my kitty cat, and last week's Downton Abbey episode, which I am looking forward to.

Blah. Hope to get better news tomorrow about my estradiol and follicles. Right now I feel hopeless.

Acupuncture Day

At 12:30 today I have my first acupuncture session. I feel like I'm grasping at straws at this point. We all (okay, me myself and I) know where this story is heading. I am speaking to Dr. F next Wednesday about beginning IVF. It's time. Five cycles of Clomid didn't do it and Femara or Letrozole gave me an insufficient luteal phase. So, HSG test on Monday, then talk to Dr. F about IVF on Wednesday. The sooner we can start, the better. I just am so worn out and tired of this whole process. I'm ready. And I pray that it works.