Thursday, May 31, 2012

CD 17: Ovulation At Last

So last month, with no Clomid, I got a positive ovulation test on day 16. This month, on Clomid, I expected something more like day 14 or 15. Instead, negative, negative, negative. I've been testing since last Saturday and today is Thursday! Finally, today, day 17, I think I got a positive, but still, I'm not 100% sure. I'll test again when I get home. I think I might have like two test strips left. Which won't matter, because I'm sick of this crap and going to do IVF next cycle. It's already planned for.

Other complications in my life are that I crashed on my scooter a couple of days ago. I'm sore and cut and have a few stitches in my chin. Trying to baby make was pretty much a joke last night (though it was accomplished) and I'm sure tonight will be the same. Bad timing but still worth doing!

In fertility land, the only other news is that I switched my DC flight to three weeks from now, since IVF will consume most of July and I won't be able to leave town then. Also, on Monday (Memorial Day) we went to a cook-out at the home of a couple from my support group. Another couple from the group, and one woman, were also there. It was okay: kind of depressing, as the support group always is, but also nice to see them outside of the hospital meeting room, and to remember not everyone is a fertile myrtle with no problems.

Anyway, I am not temping this month, due to our trip to Seattle and the time zone differences (and my cold last week and the accident this week wouldn't have helped either). So I guess we'll just try for a baby the next couple of nights and then call it quits. And wait for my period. Which always comes.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

CD 3, Clomid day 1

I have been tortured for the past two days, debating between sticking to my plan of trying Clomid for a few months or going right to IVF.

I was leaning towards IVF, thinking to just get it over with, and before my endo has a chance to come back. However, the clinic is being awful. If I start now, I'd have to be on Lupron for 26 days instead of the standard 1-2 weeks. I hate UNC so much. Why is it ok to shut down the lab for two whole weeks every month, thereby totally limiting when we can start the stims? I hate UNC and am again debating switching to Cary, despite the longer drive. I just don't know what to do. I already bought $1800 of meds that I might not be able to use if I were to switch clinics.

For now, I am too stressed out, and too pissed off. I popped my first Clomid today, having sort of given up on IVF for this cycle. The nurse is not responding to my emails or calls, as usual.

Oh, and UNC hit me with another $600 bill. I will now have paid $2700 for my one outpatient laparoscopy procedure in March. I am so upset.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Major disappointment

I got my period this afternoon. Only a 9 day luteal phase. I was not expecting this. I guess the endometriosis is either back, or that wasn't all of my problem to begin with.

B and I have decided not to wait till fall to start the IVF again. I feel that I am a ticking bomb in regards to the endometriosis and the sooner we can do the IVF, the better. I just emailed my doctor to ask him the next steps.

I'm really sad tonight and just ate way too many brownies, but I'm sure things will seem brighter in the morning. Maybe.

Monday, May 14, 2012

9 dpo and Trying to Remain Calm

Yesterday I was exhausted and slept for about two hours in the afternoon. I know it was most likely just because I hadn't had a full night's sleep the night before, due to my obsession with reading the Hunger Games and our annoying house guests. However, I kept hoping it was something more.

Today, I feel tired again, despite a full night's sleep, and a bit dizzy. I hope I am not getting sick. I am sure it must be too early for preggo symptoms, though of course I can hope.

I'm trying to relax and not get my hopes up too much, but that mean old Hope is back with a vengeance. This is an unmedicated, first post-surgery cycle, and I'm hoping my endometriosis-free ovaries are happy enough to bring me good news at the end of this week.

9 dpo and trying, trying to remain calm (but also wondering how soon I can test).

This has been one of the longest 2WWs yet.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Natural Cycle #1

On Friday, day 16 of my cycle, I got a positive ovulation signal (after a false alarm on Wednesday, day 14). Right on schedule, on Sunday, day 18 of my cycle, my temperature rose. So I ovulated on day 17, not too bad. That's a dramatic improvement from my last cycle, before the endometriosis surgery, when I did not ovulate until somewhere between day 20 and day 24.

So now, on 2dpo, I wait for another ~12 days to see if I'll get my period or not. I am very curious to see how long my luteal phase is, and praying for it to be sufficient.

We will see. I'll try not to think about it too much, in the meantime.