Two Weeks Post-Surgery

Two weeks ago today, I had just woken up from the surgery.

I am very glad it's today, and I have most of that healing behind me and not in front of me.

I am still very tired, and have been working partial days most of this week, except today I am working till 4 pm. Then, B and I are driving up to DC to see my family for Passover. I plan to continue resting and sleeping a lot, because I really want to get back to being the normal, energetic me very soon.

In other news, we met with Dr. F yesterday and it was okay. He says the endo was affecting my fertility of course, but how much is anyone's guess. Interestingly, he said endo mainly affects people in anatomic ways, such as my left ovary being full of the endo and the tube being distorted as a result of the ovary. Now that those are fixed as much as they can be, they shouldn't be the issue. However, I am left wondering what else could be wrong. I mean, if it was the endo, shouldn't I have gotten pregnant when we first started trying, right after I quit the pill and before the endo had time to appear? And also, why has my luteal phase been so messed up, if it wasn't the hormonal changes from the endo? I didn't get clear answers to any of this.

What I did leave his office with was a plan. The doctor wants the next two months dedicated to healing, so we'll do nothing in terms of interventions. Once I get my period, I will start charting again (BBT) and using the ovulation kits that I already have, because I want to see how my cycle has or hasn't changed, if the time to ovulation is more normal, and if my luteal phase is appropriate. If it all is, great. We'll try naturally. If it's screwy still, I'll go back on Clomid sometime around June. Either way, naturally or with Clomid, I'll see the doctor again in August if I haven't achieved pregnancy by then, and we'll plan to go ahead with IVF in September.

So, for the next five months, I'm either doing it au natural (plus ovulation kits and BBT) or with Clomid, but sans monitoring and doctor's appointments. I feel relieved, hopeful, and ready for disappointment, all rolled in together.