Anyway, I was happy to see it, and happy that everything was quiet on the ultrasound this morning. My blood work also showed a low estradiol number, and I was given the go-ahead to start the estrogen patches tomorrow!
So, tomorrow is DOC 1 (day of cycle 1). I cut the Lupron in half, and start this crazy complicated pattern of adding and removing new patches. I also will take one baby aspirin a day. Two weeks from tomorrow, we drive down to Atlanta, and the egg thaw is the following morning. B gives his sample, and I meet with my doctor and do a mock transfer. Then we're free for the weekend, B flies home Sunday, and I return on either day 3 or day 5 for transfer. I can drive back home the next morning. In between all this, I'll be staying with a good friend from grad school, and we might take a little trip over the weekend before I'm needed.
This is getting really real. and it's freaking me out. I'm really going into a procedure that comes with a 60% success rate (85% after two tries). I've never faced odds this good. I'm not sure how to deal with it. I have been pretty good at not dwelling on things these past few weeks, and I still have two weeks to go, but I'm letting myself fall back into the old place of Hope again. I catch myself imagining due dates, and testing out what it would feel like to have an actual baby. Considering that one day soon I could have good news for once, and in less than a year I could have a baby sleeping in the room above my head. It's exciting and terrifying, and I think I should probably quit it. I should try not to think about it, and try to protect my heart and head a little bit more.
And yet. This is SO EXCITING. I don't even know how the next two weeks are going to be, but they just can't go fast enough.
This IS exciting! Amazing how quickly things can go after the long wait to get started... I'm glad you got your period even though it was late. I was on the Pill for longer than normal this time to sync up and so I had been spotting and then had my period for what seemed forever (gross when you have to do the Estrace vaginally, so gross). I hear you on those patches. I live in fear of screwing up the patches. I like to put them on so that it looks like a Batman utility belt across my stomach, because that adhesive is superhuman and leaves gray boxes where older patches have been. You have to find fun in this somewhere, right? Congrats on coming into the home stretch--two weeks isn't long at all! I feel like we're on the same cycle pretty much--my donor's retrieval is the week of the 10th. Love those success rates, trying to imagine myself finally falling within one! :) You, too--this really is the best chance ever. Scary but exciting!
ReplyDeleteWith a frozen egg cycle, the egg thaw is like the "retrieval," which is going to be June 14th. So we really are very much on the same schedule- that's kind of cool!
ReplyDeleteNext time (if there has to be one) I think I will do the Pill instead of a natural cycle. It was too stressful when I just wanted to get started and had no idea when my period would come. I really want to get back home before my birthday- and now it will be perfect- I'll be driving home the day before. Yay for the timing finally working out! And yay even more for both of us getting ever closer to transfer day...